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I don't know what is happening to me. Spent three days what I would consider baseline. Then four hypomanic. Today I feel horrible. I am super depressed but with the energy and agitation of hypo. I want to sleep but I can't sit still. I feel like tearing my skin off. I scratched myself in class at work. I am twisting my lanyard around my neck. In class.
I feel crazy and I want to get through my day without alerting the students to my distress by accident. It's nearly impossible.
I feel like the only way to get any relief would be to hurt myself. Or sleep but I can't.
I got my pdoc appt moved up to may 16 at least.
I just want to calm the hell down.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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