I've languished for since Sat Night on a hospital ward waiting for a psych bed to open up.

They thought I was a danger to myself and held me on a 72 hour warrant.

I have left the premises and AM NOW home.

Why? The words "Nursing home" came up and they are treating me not as a psych patient, but as a disabled person who needs taking care of.

The psychiatrist can spare a little time for me. She thinks I'm upset because I'm intelligent and can't do the things that normal, intelligent, people do.

Go to HELL!!!

How is putting me in a nursing home going to make me happy? These people have lived their lives making my life miserable. Now they want to take away my freedom because my despair is causing me to act as any other depressed person would.

My body may be betraying me,but so is the medical profession again, and again and again. They promise results and deliver dirt. They put me through hell.
Oh and she doesn't think it's necessary to desensitize me...she hasn't read what I"VE Posted here has she.

I left my clothes, my morphine and my coat to come back here. I will have no attendant and no nurse and I will be in pain...but I am at peace now...I will bury everything that has happened deep down inside and forget all this.

I can't bear the hospital anymore, so i ran away.

There is a thing more crippling than cerebral palsy: the prison of your own mind.