I think it is so incredibly courageous to seek that level of treatment...and I am not exactly the face of courage these days...quite the opposite. I think its hard for anyone who has dealt with this over years and years, we tend to ignore the physical and emotional side effects...we become used to them whereas if you had only been struggling for a few months, you might take all the red flags more seriously.

For me it does come down to control and trust....T is willing to work with me on an outpatient basis for now...I think I need more security in that relationship before I could take any bigger steps.