thankyou all for your replies...


really confused at the moment... not sure what's going on, not even sure how I feel... I've promiced my brother that I'll go with him to visit him in the hospital tomorrow... absolutly terrified... I don't know why, I mean he's in a bloody coma, not like he can do anything...

going to have a panic attack or flashback or something in the hospital I can just see it...

but I have to go... no matter what he's done in the past he's still my father... and it's one of those things that I know I'll regret forever if I don't do...

I haven't spoken to him for months... and that was only a phonecall... and a negitive one at that... guess nothing will ever be resolved now... bit stupid to ever even think it might have been really...


thankyou for your replies though