Well, everyone is right in his own way about this. I have another view, though, and
want to share it with you.

Sometimes people break a friendship in an effort to preserve the integrity and goodness of the friend's life. Who's to say that your former friend didn't break
the relationship because he/she felt that you deserve to have more compassionate
and caring people in your life? We never, never know what others are thinking.

What is most important for you is that you did the best you knew how to do at
the time you forgave and tried to make amends. That's all that can be expected of anyone. From here on out, your biggest effort should be directed at "Forgiving and
Moving On." (Actually , that's the title of a little self-help paperback that is very
helpful in overcoming guilt and remorse, etc.)

In seeking forgiveness, you freed yourself from lifelong regret, in my view. I don't
think even God Himself expects us to do more than that in life.

Live by your own deepest principles and stop judging yourself. That way you'll win
in life and maintain your integrity. At first glance I would observe that you have
an astounding sense of personal integrity and compassion. The person who gave
up your friendship lost a truly remarkable person.

Go on with your life; there are many, many people who would be happy to have your friendship. Such a former friendship may just not be destined to continue. You may live to see why, in my view.