I found an IRL BP support group that meets 2x a month. It's not enough. My sister has actually bought a few books about my Dx's, is trying to understand, and we even have had a few "let it all out conversations." My husband can't be bothered. I think it's just too much. And I get it. Honestly, I don't want to accept it. But I can't run from it. Im scared. Im alone. And I really just wish anyone would reach out to me. I don't know who to reach out to. Seriously, who wants to be involved with someone like me dealing with this crap?? I don't know who to turn to. I don't know who to trust, who will love me.