(((BedofBones)))hi, and Hermit, I just want to ask, is that from a book of Buddhism, someone at the womens shelter last year let me borrow it. I also like a book called "the power of now" by Eckhart Tolle. Its kind of the same idea. The moment we are in now is all there is. I really don't get that "wherever you go there you are" though. I guess, if we dwell on the past or future of our own lives, that's where we are. Nothing new under the sun, well that can be true in whatever moment you find yourself in. A doctor put it to me this way once, when I'm having a very difficult moment, just make it simple, like think, the coffee is hot, I enjoy the smells of spring etc. I find a lot of help for myself just trying to stay present with the moment I am in, even if its an anxious or depressing thought, and then let it happen, then let it go. It doesn't always work so easily.
BedofBones, I hope you get medication that helps you feel better, and
YES people will object to the idea of you killing yourself. I do. I was there several times in life, attempting that.
I wish I could help. Sometimes directly saying things even though it sounds critical, can be helpful just to get you thinking about yourself. Best wishes with your troubles, kelly