oh yeah; - on the AA/NA front... i too am currently adverse to turning up for a session...

my bdd makes contact with anyone incredibly taxing.
i can't look people in their eyes encase they see the whole contour of my face and, well thats as far as i get... but its far enough to make me freak out

my ocd makes me think i'd go there and mess up everyone elses recovery or try and score drugs off people who are in recovery...

^i just put so many things in the way of going to one of these sessions...
i forgot to mention i have Social Anxiety disorder too..


but, just recently i'm getting my inner strength back, and my resolve to make things better.. - so i will certainly check out the local N/A's and try and get myself down there..
but boy will that be some serious stress for me.
however, i can really see meeting other people in similar predicaments could drastically improve my view on things.

so thankyou for those suggestions. I'll get researching tommorow... - or later today ;/ - its 04.00 am and i'm not sleeping for a while yet

Gnightx