I always set up the worst possible outcome in my mind. It is my way of protecting myself. Anything could be better than my idea, and if the worst happens, at least I was prepared.

I've met several people in the hospital that had the same line of thinking. Apparently, it is wrong and can lead to self-defeating behaviors.

I don't know how to stop that line of thinking though. I have the need to protect myself and be prepared for the worst, then I won't be disappointed. It's self- protective behavior that will maybe go away when I look at the protective part and find out what it is there for. Maybe someday I won't be so scared of life.