So I've been on nefazadone for almost 2 months probably going on 3. I just don't know if it's working. I thought that on the lower dose 100mg per day that I was seeing some improvement so the pdoc upped the dose to 150mg 2x a day. Ever since we upped the dose I've felt like it stopped working altogether. I felt more low than I have since I started to go to the pdoc and seeing a therapist in early December. I have been having more suicidal thoughts than usual and even had a small brush with broken glass ( I broke a glass and immediately thought I could cut myself with it) and a split second when I was taking a bath where I thought about just staying emerged under the water and not coming up as I was rinsing my face of soap. This is the first time that I had ever come close to doing anything.

I don't know what to say to either of my doctors. I'm mostly afraid that they will be angry with me. I try and listen to comedy and try and push those feelings of lowness and the suicide ideation away but it doesn't see to work. I don't know what to do right now. I am having to take xanax for anxiety more often then I'd like and my next pdoc appointment isn't until the 31st.

Any thoughts?

Thanks in advance.