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Originally Posted by scorpiosis37
I couldn't agree more, Freewilled. I'm sorry that you had to go through this situation as well. You shouldn't have had to be "parentified" as a child. I can also relate to wishing my dad would have intervened when my "mom" would go off on me, too. It was hard to sit there as a child and be called names (ugly, pig, *****, etc) & be told things like "I never wanted you," "I wish you were never born," "I'm going to kill you when Dad isn't looking," etc. I do often wonder how my dad could sit there silently while my mom said those things to me-- and then leave me alone with her and expect me to be her caretaker. I realize I probably sound a little dark today, but all of the Mother's Day commercials on TV, the radio, on the internet etc. depress me at this time of year. It's really hard, wishing I would have had a mother. And I hate how all of my casual acquaintances and co-workers say things like "I bet you're excited for Mother's Day; do you have plans?" or "Have you done your Mother's Day shopping yet? It's so hard to think of a gift special enough for someone who's done so much for us, isn't it?" It makes me want to scream!
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Mother's Day is hard

it sounds like your situation with your mom was much more extreme than mine and I'm so sorry you had to go though that

but your posts on this thread resonate with me so much and I think it's because of the central themes of a mentally ill mom and need for protection, plus being made responsible for it. I felt anger well up inside me (for you) reading your story. I think I need to process through my own anger but its hard for me. My T basically says he can feel my anger, but I know that my MO is to deny it or stuff it down or focus on my compassion for others. It's hard to be angry at someone who is sick, you know? As much as I think that she could've made other choices....it's a confusing place to be