Well, staying true to my word here is my daily check in. I had a good day yesterday and actually got some things done. I plan to do these check ins to hold myself accountable daily for a while. One of my big stressors is money and I need to find a job soon. I am happy to say that I applied for a bunch of jobs that I actually want. I have had a rapid turn around. Joiining and committing to this groujp again is part of it, the other part is asking myself "Am I emotionally able to handle the pressures at school?" The short answer is: not right now but I think things are going to be different in a week. It's not my classes that have caused all this stress it's the person I am assigned to work on for me to recieve my grant. That relationship has been going downhill pretty much all semester. It also helped to email the grant project mgr., who has always been very supportive. After taking another incomplete (that is 2 for the semester) and I will be lucky to get a C- in my photography class. It's not the grades that are importan but the fact that I have gotten nothing out of my classes. I just don't think it's worth it to stay in the program. I plan to have a productive day today and get some things done. I am giving myself this week to reflect on my feelings and thoughts. I am doing a lot beter with not blaming myself or just restating things like: I am a failure, blah.blah,blah. Instead I say funny things like party on dude (Wayne's world) and telling a friend that I should just go watch The Sound of Music to cheer me up, it will b/c I love music.