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Old May 07, 2013, 08:48 AM
notALICE notALICE is offline
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I abhor my mother. Controlling, bitter, nasty B word. In constant denial. Criticism, never love. She also tries to control my 11yo daughters life & lives vicariously through her, at my child's expense... She recently bold faced lied repeatedly about my son. She stole from me. Abuse stepfather she turned a blind eye to. I could go on.

Anyway - I'm dark and morbid by nature. Thinking of sending her black roses for Mother's Day. Immature - yes. Productive - no. Will it make me feel better - yes.

She gave birth to me, gave me life, but tried not to. (Another story).

I know I need to let go of the anger. Going to a workshop Saturday on just that topic. Maybe it will change my mind.

Another reason I hate Mother's Day is that I often feel like the worst mom. No, I don't beat them, very loving, but my older kids are not with me, and I tend to be extremely melancholy.

Yes, I clearly have issues. Anyone else?
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MIDWAY upon the journey of our life
I found myself within a forest dark,
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