thanks so much for your story big mama.

I too have trouble left over from my experiences. I wish I could be better around men. I actually feel sorry that I can't right now.

I am so sorry your bf did that and that you and your h had to suffer like this.

It is not fair to anyone, I know.

I wish I could afford EMDR. Never had it before.

I guess I am doing massage therapy so that I can learn how to be touched in a safe way. Even that's tricky.

thanks again,

Carol