thanks so much for your story big mama.
I too have trouble left over from my experiences. I wish I could be better around men. I actually feel sorry that I can't right now.
I am so sorry your bf did that and that you and your h had to suffer like this.
It is not fair to anyone, I know.
I wish I could afford EMDR. Never had it before.
I guess I am doing massage therapy so that I can learn how to be touched in a safe way. Even that's tricky.
thanks again,
Carol