Hey, I went thru something similar.
I feel like I have to remind people---my roommate, others, that just because my aunt "did her best" does *not* mean I deserved what she did to me.
I am so sorry your inner critic was so triggered. I go thru this, too. When even one person criticises me, there it goes. "You complaining brat..." and variations of it. Horrible.
While I was reading your post, I pictured myself throwing a blanket over your psyche to keep out that pernicious voice.
Don't listen to it. Try really hard not to.
My mentor tells me this, "Be careful when your voice starts shouting along with the external critics. You can choose not to listen."
I also realize now (having gone thru much much h*ll in my own head) that when this kind of thing happens, I need to be really loving toward myself, even if I have to do it all alone.
I am all I've got.
You are all you've got.
Hold on.
Carol
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