hey!

I've been on paxil (paroxetine) for almost two months now. It's my 20th day on the regular 20mg dose, before that I took 10mg. the 10mg only increased my anxiety, and didn't have any good effects. when I started the 20mg, on the first day of it, I had a panic attack. it was horrible. But I kind of thought, okay, it's kind of normal to have side-effects, so I didn't care about it. and then at like 11-12 days it started to make my anxiety better, and then I even felt a bit of energy increase, and a better mood.
that lasted for about day 15, but in the last 5 days or so, it's slowly starting to get worse. I don't care about anything, I feel like I can't feel good or bad either, can't cry, can't laugh, no sexual drive at all, and I feel totally hopeless too. Whatever I try to get out of this, only makes it worse, that's what I feel. I know that they say, the "full effects/benefits only appear after 4-6 weeks or even 2 months... but come on! I actually feel suicidal today, and totally worn out and hopeless. Is this normal? is this a side effect of the meds? or is it that I'm getting fed up, of no matter how hard I'm trying, I can't make my condition any better?
what should I do? stop the meds?
Start jogging, even if I'm fatigued out as hell?
is there ANYTHING that actually helps??? I'm meeting some friends almost every day, they come over to visit me, I take daily walks, I take Omega 3, spirulina algae, multivitamin, i go twice a week to psychotherapy, i go once monthly to my psychiatrist, i take the meds every day at the same time... what the f--- is up? what more can I do? why isn't it getting better? why is it only getting worse?
I would literally do anything that people say it helps, but so far NOTHING helped!! wtf is this ??? i would rather have a broken leg or anything that has a normal diagnose and a normal cure.