I'm so tired. I've accepted this as could be worse. Things probably are going to change soon, though because I am losing my grip on reality & on the verge of a total mental/nervous breakdown. I see the warning lights flashing while everything around me falls apart. I don't believe there will ever be a happy ending because it's just not realistic. I will always be broken, empty, and terrified. So be it. but thank you for caring enough to ask that question, and I wish you well in life