I have grown to accept the term bipolar and I even told a few family members. One just laughed and said (kindly), "I've always known you are moody...". But I am struggling GREATLY with trying to accept my past and I feel lost about how to do it. I am hoping some of you can share how you have come to accept yourselves (those of you who are not angels).
I just feel like such a piece of crap for some things that i have done. I spent a ton of time drinking excessively from when I was about 17 on. I can only look back and guess my state of mind, but there are times I ended up doing things I feel very bad about and I kind of hate myself for some of my actions. I have apologized to those that I have hurt, to the best of my ability. I can't change things, I know, but I feel like I am finally ready to process some of this now that I understand WHY my behavior was so erratic. I don't know where to begin and think that hearing some of your stories of self-acceptance may help me. I would love any suggestions you feel comfortable offering, too.