so lately I have been struggling with emtions in a more different way.
I had a few people that I was intimate with break off with me...and at first it was hard for me to see it but it was a good thing for me to move on these people they were not good for me and maybe in some sense they were even dangerous for me.

So I have less people in my life that are even closer to me...but things are different.

I get how dealing with me and m bipolar makes me a very hard person to get to know and to get close to.

I am starting to notice that for me when I want to talk to my girlfriend I don't want to just text her on the phone I want to actually hear her voice,...and that works with my phone plan better cause its set up more to talk then to text. Well with her its the oppsite.

it really frustrates me but I don't know how to say that and not come off as a pain and over all I think she gets it....cause we do want to spend time with each other we have just not had a lot of time to recently.

me and my best friend have not spent as much time with each other lately mostly due to something akward between me and an ex of her's as much as it feels as me and him are trying to fight back our feelings.....they keep coming and we keep talking with each other. I am trying to take a break from meeting new people but I can't help but feel something with this guy. But I know that my feeling confuse and make others feel akward so I have kind of hermiting myself in the house a lot lately