I'm having a hard time. Work was ok almost 14 hours and don't feel like I did anything. Everyone else did more than me. I SIed last night twice. And now my mental health nurse thinks I should be on meds which is kindda freaking me out. Only Med I felt like did anything was geodon and it made me feel super mellow. I don't want to go on anything that isn't going to work or is going to make me a zombie. Then silly things at work made me mad which gets redirected at myself. Sorry just needed to get it out.