I had chat today with mental health nurse in coffee shop its the second time she has left me absolutely stuck in daze not a good daze but a daze of disassociation. I didn't know what was going on this time and I felt really sad and off beat. I remember it had something to do with talking about wanting to commit suicide then everything she said after that was like blah blah blah blah. And she kept smiling...for some reason....

now I feel all rattled....but the daze has warn off it took awhile I even stared at myself in the mirror washing my hands for a very long time...maybe its the ativan I took 4mgs...