I don't really understand why or how these feelings have developed but for the last few weeks I want t to hold me. She hugs me sometimes, she always initiates hugs and I never wanted or needed her touch but now more than ever I crave it. She is very touchy feely anyway so she is not opposed to touching like some ts. I want her to hold me tight and never let me go. Of course I do realise that what I want and what I get are two very different things.

Lately me transference is unbearable, I think about t all the time and yesterday on the way to gf house I drive by ts house and she was sitting outside in the sun with some man and I feel so jealous. I was happy for t but jealous that she was with a man. I don't know how to stop these feelings and have been thinking of quitting therapy again because I want to run away from these feelings.
I can't tell t because I am not very good at articulating my feelings