Hey there,

I'm sorry your feelings are getting so strong, and that you don't feel like you can talk to your T about them. That must not only be frustrating, but also make you feel pretty alone.

Have you tried writing them out at all? Sometimes when I have things I want to say to someone but don't know how, I write a "letter that will never be sent". Writing a letter to someone that I have no intention of sending always helps me get stuff out, and sort out exactly what I am feeling. Usually, what I do is once I write it, I put it away for a week, and then I re-read it, and if I still feel all the same things that I wrote, I use it as a template to write an actual letter/email to the person. I figure that if the feelings have persisted after a week, they are probably pretty important to discuss.

Do you think you could do something like that? Maybe write to your T and tell them how you are feeling, even if you don't send it? Do you think that might help?

Sending big hugs your way!!

Ness