H3rmit: I am touched by the time and thought you've put in to posting here. I do feel heard and thank you for that. We have some similarities in background and in interests. I have to get ready for my flight tomorrow. Going on a trip may help me. All my issues will still be waiting for me. It really helps to get feedback from others who didn't find that going to see a therapist was the be all and end all. I'm glad for those who find great support in therapy. I didn't. Thanks for hearing the pain. I've been hurting a lot. If only the professionals could speak to that a bit. Sometimes people just need some consolation, and then it's easier to resume the struggle.

Oh, just Rose is fine. I only had to add the numbers because I'm not the only Rose.