5. I feel that, even though I disagree with his method of delivery, he really does have my best interest at heart when he offers criticisms. That being said, he's put a lot of effort into helping me grow and I feel bad walking away from that.
I've been in the same position too, and I feel for you. I left there, and now looking back, even though my job now is working out, I wish I had been able to figure out how to improve my situation when I was in it, because now I know how I could have survived, even thrived. But hindsight...
Anyway, i was wondering, if you feel he has your best interest at heart, and is trying to help you grow, is there any way to view his criticisms and tone in a different light, so that instead of tearing you down, you can apply them to your benefit? I'm not saying your boss is good, or right- it's wrong for him to be condescending and belittling- but just for you to try to pull out the lessons and move on.
I have been nervous and even cried in front of people before too (different situation), and what happens is people (especially men) tend to view you as someone to not take seriously, or someone who is "hysterical". Again, I'm not saying this is right, just what is. Change how you are perceived if you can, by working on hiding your emotions and seeming like all is well- I hate doing it, but it actually has worked for me and has freed me up to eventually be comfortable being myself. I have also studied verbal defense, and am better at politely expressing exactly what I want to say.
Hope this is helpful- I hope this explains enough. Good luck whatever you decide!
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