thank you so much, you guys.

everyday is a battle for me. i've not only lost someone that i felt like would be "the one." and because of my issues. i have a hard time trying not to blame myself for this. well, i know he had some issues too so i suppose it's not all my fault. either way, it's hard.

maybe if he really loves me and it's meant to be, then it'll work out, huh? that's what i'm thinking at least.

well, i wanted to get some insight on this...
maybe i didn't go into much detail on this, but i have a lot of issues with the males that have been in my life. it's weird though because i've always felt more comfortable hanging out with guys than girls. but there have been horrible males growing up (dad and the guys that have molested me). and then this guy that i dated, whom i really loved and revolved my life around, but also made my enemy.

what is my issue with males?