Hi, I did a long post and it appears to be lost in space. I will try to recap. It is not fair the way you were treated. Our culture has very little understanding of disabilities or emotional issues. You have both to deal with. You don't need to go to a nursing home. You have a right to make up your own mind about where you want to receive what kind of daily assistance. You also have a right to fight like heck for yourself and get what you need. When I am this depressed I can't fight with the cat let alone a system. Is there someone who can help advocate with you? That always makes me feel less alone. Good for you for taking care of yourself. I am concerned that you do not have your morphine because that in it'self can make things about a trillion times worse. Any way of getting it? Have a peaceful evening and a better tomorrow. Peace.