i totally understand the family thing! i hate telling my husband what's going on because he sometimes accuses me of "not trying hard enough" to "get over" the depression. if he knew how often I have cut myself since I relapsed i'm afraid he would try to commit me! And my mom just gets over worried about things...they would rather believe everything is fine, though.

But if you are over 18, you don't need them to get help. trust yourself! tell your T what's going on (i know you can't contact your pdoc directly). even if you are under 18 you don't need their approval!

sometimes I have to just remember that it's cycle and this episode will end...sometimes I get stuck in remembering it will come back too...but it WILL end! Just hold on!

hold on when you feel like letting go - hold on it gets better than you know!