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Does the googling itself upset you, or is it the guilt and need/fear of telling your therapist about it?
If the problem is not in the googling itself, or if it's not a big problem, I'd say google away, don't tell her, and try not to feel guilty.
I think, in a way, telling her that you're googling during a session ends up making that -portion- of the session about her. A couple of people have mentioned doing this as a way to maintain the connection. I don't see any problem with that. But I think in telling her about it, in a way, it makes it bigger than it is, and then the conversation ends up being about her, the information you found about her, how it makes you feel, etc. I know this goes against the adage of telling one's therapist everything, but just a thought about the potential gain in not telling her.
Of course if the core, underlying problem really is the googling itself, then I suppose you shouldn't do it. Though there's still the possibility of not telling her about it. Counterintuitive, I know, and I could be way off.
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