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Originally Posted by wny-er
Hi, I am Alexandra... Alex for short.
I've been disabled from and living with bipolar for around 22 years at this point. I cannot work at all because when I do I become totally manic and as everyone knows here that kind of ruins everything. It's only been the last 8 or so years that I have had a functioning life. I find it amusing because most people in my life don't even know I had it and can't figure out why I am disabled.
I feel that people who don't have it just don't understand so I never talk about it with anyone but my psychiatrist. Frankly I am tired of not being understood. I recently read a book that had a link leading here, so here I am. I have not had any support or even known anyone else who has this for a bunch of years now. Just found an offline support group I am going to go check out next week.
Anyway, it would be nice to feel I am not alone anymore and also be somewhere that people don't use the word "bipolar" as an insult.
Thanks for being here!
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Alexandra,
When people meet me, I know they don't think I'm bipolar and disabled until I tell them. For all outward appearances, I'm calm, reasonable, courteous and friendly. They can't know the turmoil and psychic storm that's raging in my brain. Let them see me when I'm in the throes of a raging mania and a migraine, which I was in the midst of this weekend. They'd run away from me as fast as they could, lol. Even my wife is scared by what she see's. To make it worse, I'm treatment resistant, so even the psychiatrists I've encountered don't know what to do for me. But you're here in a welcoming, comforting community. The world will think what it wants to think. Our only job is to live and thrive in the best way we can.