Hi NotQuiteRight,

Have you ever felt less despair or enjoying yourself even without a specific purpose? Just enjoying the day?

I wanted to say that I can understand some of your experience I think. And like others have said it's a bit funny maybe because this is all online, but there's a community of real people here. And I also care that you're here.

I've been severely depressed for a year and every day for months with very few moments of light I've also felt like I'm just killing time, and trying to check off another day on the calendar. Just exist, and not sure why. It is a painful way to live. But I do it anyway somehow. Deep down even though I don't feel I have many friends and don't have a job at the moment, I know that I love people in general. I think that might be why I decide to exist each day.

Ok, I think I'm possibly rambling but I resonate with your post and wanted to say hi.

TinyRabbit - I love B. Yoshimoto's books, read all of them. Best was the first one though, Kitchen