I was just thinking about something. I know that people can't change. No matter how hard they try. But how (if I ever have a relationship with my mom again) will I be able to change my behavior towards her? I mean I understand I have to be different otherwise I am putting myself in a bad controlling situation again, but how? And if I can make these adjustments will it last, or will I end up exactly the way I was?
It may be too premature to think about, but my mind is always spinning.
I was also thinking about why on earth my brother would write me that text message. I mean every time my brother says or does something, i always have to think, what's in it for him? I realize that perhaps he is getting sick of my mom bothering him, since she doesn't have me to spend so much time with her anymore. My brother doesn't like to be bothered unless there is something that benefits him. So naturally he wants me to talk to her again so he is left alone.
I know I need to stop these bad thoughts but I'm only human I guess. I just need a fresh perspective.