Thanks for the replies everyone. I drink about 3 times a week, and I do binge drink. I realize that sometimes I do drink to manage my anxiety and a couple weeks ago I drank at work because I felt very anxious about something. So yeah, I know that some of these things aren't good; however, most of the time when I drink it is for social reasons, and like I said I really only do drink 3 times a week. I can see how my T thinks this as a problem and I know it is her job to point it out to me, but she goes WAY overboard, to the point where we are literally spending half of session arguing about it, and last session she told me she would keep pushing it until I stopped drinking.

I was pretty proud of myself this past week because I was really trying hard to think positive about myself, and I have started repeating this mantra in my head: "I am beautiful, I am intelligent, I am good at my job," before I go to work. I told her it was really helping, but then when I told her I drank on Friday and Saturday (and Friday I drank to the point of throwing up), she told me I was undoing all the hard work I was doing by thinking positive because alcohol is a depressant and will make me depressed. For me, I had a good week, I really practiced positive thinking, and it paid off. Yeah, I drank a lot this weekend, but we literally spent so much time arguing about that when I felt that I had a really good week.

And the comment she made about my co-worker is really insulting both to me and to her. My co-worker has been doing her job for 11 years and the executive director of our organization call her "the face of my organization." She is also the community district leader for the neighborhood we work in, and has lived in the neighborhood for more than 20 years. She is the same nationality as most of the people we work with, and so I think she sees her job as more than a job. She sees it as she is helping her people and her community,and so she hold people to a higher standard of job performance, so it means a lot for me to have her endorsement for the job. For my T to say that she wants me to stay simply because she wants a drinking buddy is completely insulting both to me and to her her, and is also completely untrue. I know this woman would not want to hang out with me outside of work if I was bad at my job. I think it shows how far T is willing to go to get me to stop drinking, ie making things up and being insulting.

Also FYI, the p-doc I see does not think my drinking is a problem. If he did he would not agree to see me and would instead send me to an outpatient place.