Me, too. It's not stupid at all. I always tell my T when she or I go away that I'm afraid she's going to die. She says she's not, but of course that's not true. She's only 50 so it's not so likely, but no one knows for sure when their time is up. I think she once told me that she has a plan if something happens to her. I suppose someone in her office complex would tell me. Sometimes I have a dread that I will get such an email or a phone call. I'm trying to tell myself that I would grieve but I would go on. I don't know why the fear is so much greater about her death than about someone in my family dying. I think it may be because it's too awful to think about that happening to any of my family.

RectO, you're not alone. Thanks for starting this thread!