I have not been diagnosed with Bipolar, I will start there. However when I get back from a trip I am planning I am going to seek out someone to help me figure it out with the right credentials. Although I am almost 99.9% percent sure after doing hours and hours of research and talking and listening to others.
That's my preface and disclaimer:
Here is what happens to me. I will wake up one morning be having me coffee or my first smoke on the porch, and I get a feeling In the back of my throat. I do feel a kind of tingling, now that I think back, but very very short lived like secounds if that. Then that seems to be it. I am off to the races. I shower play music loadly as I am getting ready typically rap songs about wealth or success. ie Foerever, feat Eminem, Drake. cause I love to sing along the quick lyrics are awesome. I put on my best clothes, I mean looking sharp. I feel kinda like you described above and beyond everyone else. I get driven I smooth talk customers, make amazing sales, honestly... I go shopping I buy the nicest stuff I can find, but can't afford. I call up old friends I haven't talked to in months and chat. People I would normally run away from in a public setting. Then I too get Idea's starting up a busniess, thinking I am going to make millions. Just awesome almost God like feelings. Then it goes to far I get to shakey, I start thinking I wont live long enough to realize all these things, I pounder my own mortality. I get tension headaches, anxious, dizzy, foggy, then finally hunger seems to set in. I start getting really really down, but I still have racing thoughts, but negative ones. Then eventually I eat, and finally get a full nights sleep. Then I have gray days, no real thoughts atleast not racing ones, my ego has totally deflated. I realize I ain't no thing just a 26 year old who blew to much money... then I sleep I may not go into work If I do I will sleep at work and sometimes I can get very very depressed last time was three days straight in bed (not to bad that time). Then I start to feel kinda normal just going to and from like everyone else, but I gotta tell you I do look forward to that rush again and when it hits for the first bit I love it! I used to drink when that rush came along and drink when the down came along or use drugs mostly downers for a long long time (been clean and sober for a long time now). I don't mind it all that much, but the depression really really sucks and it's super hard to keep friends.
I left it out but I also get very aggravated, by people moving to slow or holding me back by not doing simple tasks correctly.
I don't think you are out of line at all. I think PC is what you make it! isn't that the point?
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