They are two different things, however the simple partial seizures I have can explain my episodes of dissociation. It wouldn't necessarily explain my full blown blackouts but considering I don't know what happened during these blackouts and it was so long ago that I don't remember how I felt before and after makes it hard to determine if they were in fact seizures.

However, my last major blackout that lasted about 8 hours was about 5 years ago. Strange now I'm connecting the dots and see that 3 out of my last 4 major blackouts happened in May time frame which is when I had a major blackout during a traumatic event when I was 14. Last May I had a drop seizure. 3 years before that I had a blackout that lasted 8 hours and me in the hospital.

But with those I'm fairly certain those two were seizures. Although when I went to the hospital 4 years ago no doctors every said anything about seizures, I don't think. Than again I don't remember the hospital really. I kept coming out of it and have flashes of memory from that night but that's it. I was vomiting, laying on the floor, apparenly I just kept yelling "I'm going to die" and was vomiting the whole night. I'm assuming I wasn't responsive in the hospital because one flash I remember was a nurse coming in the room saying she was going to give me a cathadir to which I replied all groggily "No, I can pee in a cup" and next thing I know I'm being discharged from the hospital. With the worst migraine of my life lasting about 5 days. Why would they give me a cathadir unless I wasn't responsive? I was sitting on the couch and the next thing I know I'm in the bathroom vomiting, then I fall and hit my head on the counter and it's just flashes from there for the entire night. But they sent me home. Wish I could get the records but they said they have no records of me. I don't know what's going on with that.

But I just emailed the girl that was with me and asked her the details, hopefully that will shed some light on the topic. You would think if I was having back to back seizures that they would have known something was up so the psych docs always assumed it was a dissociative episode. But with so many different types of seizures and my symptoms during it's hard to tell.

I just want to not have epilepsy and not have DID. I feel for all of you who do have DID and when I'm under a large amount of stress I wish a part would come let me in and let me get away from the stress but that only lasts a few hours at most most of the time, before I'm back to reality with a lot of confusion and headache.