I saw my T yesterday. He informed me he was going on another trip. He goes on one-two a year to all parts of the world and its usually for a month. I told him like a child that I didn't want him to go and that I was pissed at him, half joking. The thought of him leaving got me so upset that I emailed him last night and I said too much.

I told him we dont talk about my feelings for him, that I would go away with him if he ever asked, but that I knew that was never possible. That I get scared when he is gone, I'm so attached to him, and feel like I'm not going to make it alive until he returns....a little over dramatic there arrrrggghh. Then I told him that I loved him.

He has not returned my email.....arrrrgggggh. What do I expect him to say?
But I would still like a couple of words from him none the less. I dont t hink I can stand to wait until I see him next week to communicate with him in some way.
I did mean everything I said. He knows I love him, but I rarely tell him. My fear of losing him for a month just sent me into a tailspin. Should I try to contact him?