I love my husband and our marriage is good, except that I am attracted to women and I want to live the life of a lesbian. I wont end my marriage as it would not be fair to my husband. I fantasize about women and I am sexually frustrated. I had an affair with a female friend, but she told her husband everything and now i feel exposed and he wants a threesome (no thankyou).
how do i satisfy my sexual needs? Is it possible to just pretend that I am kissing a woman when in fact i am kissing a man?