I am dealing with so many emotions at one time that they are all tangled up!!! I am angry, frustrated, hurt, wanting to harm myself any ways I can, inclouding suicide if it wasn't for having to take care of my son!! no one would miss me anyways!! and all their problems would be gone!!! I have told my supposed sperm donors family whom I just recently have gotten in contact with (past 2years and got real close that quick so I thought) to go to hell. besides dealing with physical pain where it hurts to freakin walk anymore!!!! I GIVE UP!!!!!