Heya..

Am sorry that you're going through this. But all I can say is that I don't think you'll ever be truly happy until you are honest and live a true life. Our sexuality is so very important. Sure, it doesn't make all of us, but its a large part. I also think that you being fair to your husband and being why you are staying is a little contradictory as it's not fair to have an affair.

I do not know if pretending will work, but I guess you already know the answer to that with the kissing.

I am truly sorry tho, as there is no easy answer. Someone is bound to be unhappy whatever your outcome - either your husband or you.

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