Hi DeStar ~ For heavens sakes, don't hold onto the past!!! Walk away, and forget it and move on to something/someone else!
You WILL find someone else. Don't look for someone in particular -- like someone just like YOU. Someone will show up in your life when you least expect it, and it will be HIM. You won't even be looking for anyone, probably. That's usually the way it works. LOL
But never quit looking. Of course, don't look "desperate."

But you'll find that special someone -- believe me.
Keep us posted, okay? I wish you the very best. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee