Several years ago I lost a lOt of weight due to an illness. I was diagnoses with EDNOS, but just on the verge of the low/dangerous end. I have worked through that and overcome my eating challenges and over exercise. However, now I have gone the other way. I am on the verge of being overweight. I am only five ft tall and although I do not look overweight, I feel horrible about myself.

All of my pants are tight and i cant get new ones- i just cant. I wake up and eat candy, and I am addicted to chocolate. I had an entire container of chocolate frosting yesterday. Its disgusting. I don't purge and I don't think I could do that, I used to simply eat less calories than I needed and I purged through hours of exercise. Now I just walk my dog. I did try and turn things around last week and went to the gym twice. But alas, my fat butt is on the couch again today and I went through an entire bag of peanut butter chocolates by 3pm. It's disgusting.

I don't know what to do. I know I have an unhealthy relationship with food, but idk what to do about it. I can't stop. I even wake up in the middle of the night, thinking I can steal a piece of candy. To me, chocolate is all I need.