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I feel betrayed by you, Christi. Just as I was beginning to feel that I could trust you, that your face was familiar enough, that your voice was benign, you became angry with me. You have no right to be angered at me for this. All I have ever tried to do was be honest. I feel that you are stumbling and struggling. Your marriage is failed, your children disrespect you, you are late, you are forgetful, you can be crass and selfish. These things I have overlooked because you were human. Because you cannot help it if you have made mistakes. You are flawed. Can't you grant me that same understanding, just one more time?
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"Just as a jewel that has been buried in the earth for a million years is not discolored or harmed, in the same way this noble heart is not affected by all of our kicking and screaming. The jewel can be brought out into the light at any time, and it will glow as brilliantly as if nothing had ever happened. No matter how committed we are to unkindness, selfishness, or greed, the genuine heart of bodhichitta cannot be lost. It is here in all that lives, never marred and completely whole."
Pema Chodron
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