It's been a while since I was last here.

My husband and I just split about three weeks ago. We have had problems in the past but this time seems to be permanent.

I seem to be going through a grieving process as if he is dead although we have talked on the phone almost every day since he left.

We have both tried to stay civil towards one another but there are so many emotions raging.

I guess I'm just confused because it seems we are getting along better now and we both are so upset over it and miss and love each other. We both have made some changes that caused a lot of our fights.

Am I wrong for wanting to hold on? Am I just weak for wanting him back and putting a band aid on the feelings?

I am actually mad at family members and my therapist for making it seem like he is a horrible person and siding with me. They all seem to think I am SO much better without him and all I can think is.."yeah, but you aren't alone and crying all the time".

I don't want to go back to a bad situation but I also firmly believe we are meant to be together and I would never feel the same about anyone. I do trust him and love him, I just got tired of fighting. Is that reason enough to end a marriage?