((((((( Rectopathic )))))))

Firstly it's not a stupid post, you've just had a T tell you painful and frightening things and you have every right to be feeling bad about it .

What strikes me is that she's more or less saying that she and therapy can't help you anymore and that she's expecting YOU to go to your GP and organize other professional help for yourself. In my eyes that's abrogating her responsibility, the least she could have done was suggest that you needed extra help and tried to steer you in the right directions for getting that help (not threaten you with hospital and tell you you can't beat this - how much confidence does THAT inspire???? )

How much confidence have you had in her up to now? Perhaps she isn't trained to deal with ED's but she's obviously known about yours all along so it seems a bit rich that she's now bleating about being stuck in trying to help you. I have very little time for Ts who pull the plug because their inadequacies and fears surface after some time in the therapy. I'm sorry if you are close to her and that maybe it's her seeming rejection of you that's causing you the pain - but she does sound like she's badly mismanaged this issue.

Perhaps you could talk to her about this and see if she isn't willing to help you look for extra help with the ED, without necessarily ending therapy with you? It's even possible she was being deliberately provocative to try and get you to 'see sense' (not that I agree with that approach if that's indeed what she was doing, this whole shock tactic thing...)

And aside from the therapy issue, I think it sounds like a good idea for you to go see your GP anyway - sounds like your ED is becoming threatening to your health and no matter what the moral/emotional issues at stake with your T are, your health has to be your priority right now.

I'm just sorry she isn't helping you deal with this, instead of dumping you to deal with it alone .