Your post got me thinking Rect0pathic, in no way was it "stupid". I'm so sorry about the ED. Maybe T is just scared that she is not helping you enough because you are still having so many troubles. When my T said I was stuck, it made me feel so bad. I felt like he was giving up on me and that maybe I should give up too. Like I was a hopeless case. I hope you don't feel that way because you have a future. I wanted so much to have children too. It's to late for me now, but not for you. Please keep seeing T. Go back to her and talk about your reluctance to try the ED clinic. I have a friend who struggles with ED and sees a T AND a nutritionist who helps them eat foods they like and that are healthy. I thought that was a great idea. It has helped her concentrate on eating for good health so that she will not be afraid to get in bad habits of eating the wrong foods. I don't know if that sounds of any use to you but I wanted to share it. I'm thinking it would be good for many of us to see a nutritionist (I don't eat well myself). I want so much for you to have a chance at motherhood (the chance I never had) Sorry, this is an emotional topic for me (I guess for you too). Please keep trying to fight the ED with T (she sounds like she's trying to help). You need a healthy body to carry a baby to term. Anne and others here gave great advice. It makes sense, think about it. Don't wait too long, please.