Thanks people.

I have an appoitment to see another therapist on Monday. I wasn't sure that things were working out with this one, you see. So I called him up and left a message for him to call, and a few weeks back now he called me back. I had had a bit of a late night... Stumbled home to bed at 6am I believe. He called near 12 and I answered the phone in a rather drunken state. Was trying to explain... He had no idea who I was or why I was calling. I was trying to explain... And I know I was really very incoherant.

But he had a hearty laugh and he seemed interested in meeting with me. Said we could see what we make of each other...

I'm concerned that this might distract from my current t. Because I do find it easier to attach to guys. Because my attachment to my current t is so fragile.

She is leaving for one month. She said what they always say 'I'll have a chat to x about seeing you while I'm gone'. Then a couple of sessions later 'We have decided that you don't really need to see x while I'm gone, but you can call her if you need her, okay?' And of course... I can't bring myself to say 'NO it is not okay'. But it isn't okay, it isn't okay, IT ISN'T OKAY.

So... I'll meet him on Monday... Preparing for her going away... Then in January... I'll need to decide what to do then. Okay?