This is a common experience.

I went through a 14 month long psychosis so I know what you are feeling. During my illness, I found comfort in my hallucinations and delusions. Sometimes, paranoia and agitation would surface and make my life very difficult so I complied with treatment. I soon realized how much I missed the more positive hallucinations. They were comforting and were a distraction from myself.

After recovery, I became somewhat despondent. Finding something to do outside of my home helped me recover.