I'm tired of being sick, and fed-up of having no direction yet again. Lost and stuck does not look good on me folks.

I'm sick AGAIN, some sort of viral infection... A UTI, Flu, Tonsilitus and now this, all in what? 2 months maybe?
Also you guys were right, my wisdom tooth is retarded, its lying down, yep, horizontally just beneath my gum, I now have such hectic inflammation the dentist thought my gum suffered a chemical burn...

I'm stressed because I need a job, soon, but not too soon, because then I don't get certification, and this year at ADT was then a waste. So I'm kinda stuck, and those of you who know me, know I suffer from "caged tiger syndrom" when stuck...

So I've been trying to "monitor" my stress, no luck, Idk how stressed I am, and I guess that's because bf makes me so damn happy and being inlove and proud of myself with vigilantly battling the bpd stuff, it kinda clouds how much things actually suck.

I'm happy life is mostly good, but sometimes tears escape or my head starts pounding because its sort of too much. But it passes so quickly, really fleeting.

Example: lastnight, I nearly cried when Gary said "you shouldn't leave the lid on, the food will smell like plastic" (we were reheating leftover supper lil bro and I) I retorted with "you're always criticizing me" tears in my eyes and all. Like seriously WTF? Went to wash my face, and rejoined him in his room to watch more Arrow episodes, previous tears forgotten.

So idk where I'm at, sick and really tired, and worried.
Dh pointed out that I'm quiet, so just thought I'd atleast have the decency to check in.